February 2012
9 posts
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I spent four hours driving to and from a bigger city today in a fancy rental paid for by my work. I was a handsome little Girl Friday, running errands and advocating and getting things done and just generally operating. I dressed up in some fancy-ass clothes and strutted around in this fancy-ass mall, looking queer as shit in my skinny stretch jeans, tattered sneaks, thin and tight vintage tee,...
Thinking more about trans* women’s exclusion from queer women’s spaces. Thinking also about my position as a non-woman, non-binary trans* lady in this discussion. Let’s take a case study:
So first, Jenna at liquorinthefront posted this thing where she said:
I really hate discrimination within the queer community. Like when lesbians get pissed off if transmen come to ladies...
Unthinkable Creatures is this busy, hectic workshop filled day and night with the bodies and the work and the sounds of a bunch of intense, tough, dreamy ladies with tattoos and asymmetrical haircuts. It’s housed in an abandoned foundry: writing desks and craft tables and tattoo stations, letter presses and copiers and laptops and reams of paper and skeins of wool and crates of records and...
Writing the secret [fear/shame/anger]
This writing comes from a place [of love/of anger]. I do feel that love and anger are not mutually exclusive. Thanks to KS for reviewing this piece.
It also addresses triggering topics including suicide and trans*misogyny, like much of the writing I do in this space. Please care for yourself in whatever way necessary.
I feel such pride/joy/inspiration/optimism when I watch my drag king friends...
What we write about when we're avoiding writing...
[Trigger warning: the following thing references suicide, as does this warning.]
An incomplete list of the things that helped me repeatedly not kill myself today:
Avery Edison’s blog, twitter stream, and stand-up comedy
Billy Cheer’s twitter stream (I mean, really)
twitter in general
Oliver Bendorf’s reassurance that the injustices I see are real
Little Light’s...
I’m so, so scared [of/to write] what I’m writing right now. I’m scared because it’s something I’ve been silent about for a long time, something that’s killing me that I don’t feel like anyone wants to hear. I’m scared because there are only about 6 people in the world that I really love and interdepend on, and they’re all cis queer women or...
Two weeks ago, my friends and I threw a party to raise money for my self care fund. It was pretty good.
I’ve got a whole stack of privileges I unjustly benefit from. I’m white, not fat, “able bodied”, not in poverty; I have a BS from a state university. I also often (but decreasingly) get read as a straight or normatively gay male binary man, which carries privilege...
Trying to write/speak the very deep shame and...
I’ve been [searching for/trying to create] language to talk about my needs+desires+boundaries+feelings around my trans* experience/identity.
“medical costs” —> “health care costs” —> “self care costs”
“transition” —> “transformation” —> “trans* experience”
“feminize my...